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Here it is Valentine's day and Beth, Kurtis and family are coming over for dinner.  I have thought of you numerous times today, can't seem to get you off my mind.  I know you would have enjoyed being here, too.  In know I would love to have you here for all of the kisses and hugs.  I sure miss you, baby.  I keep thinking it will get better, but I must be trying to convince myself because it is not happening.  I know you must finally at last be in peace and for that I am grateful.  For selfish reasons I want you here.  I love you baby and you were my Valentine.  Take care and God Bless.  See ya soon. 

Well, dear heart, here it is November the 4th and election day.  I know you were very avid about voting.  You considered it a priviledge to vote.  I can see you going out on the streets and encouraging people to exercise their right to vote.  You would also be so excited at the results.  You were so very open minded about who should be elected.  I sure miss you honey so very much.  I also know that Heaven is so much sweeter with you there.  I know that it is somewhat sadder without you here.  Honey, I wished you knew how much you really affected Heidi and Heather.  Even I was touched by what they had to say about the effects you had with them.  You taught them about Jesus Christ and the Grace of God.  I do hope they hang onto that and teach their babies the same things.  Also, Halloween just past and I thought of you then, too.  You sure loved those Dove chocolates.  You always loved giving out the candy and seeing all of the costumes.  I enjoyed watching you in your prime, giving out candy , praising the outfits and getting down on your knees for the babies.  What a blessing you were in my life and I look forward to seeing you again.  I know a part of me went with you that day and I will never be the same again.  I love and miss you.  Wish i could hold you and run my fingers thru your hair.  Rest my love    

Darrel, it has been 2 years since you left us.  We still have bad days, some worse than others.  I didn't get to spend much time with you because you were in Idaho and I was in Mississippi, but the times we were together and the talks on the phone I will always cherish.  The pictures of us at Graceland, I will always treasure.  All of our tears is a language God understands.  God is with us each and every day helping us through our sadness.  I love and miss you.  Love Aunt Nell  Written by Aunt Nell on October 23rd, 2008.

 

Oh my precious dear baby, how I miss you so.  I know you are no longer in pain or depressed.  I know you must be so at peace and I am consoled with that idea.  I know Heaven must be so much sweeter with you there to bring so much joy to everyone there.  There is such a grave loss here without you.  I think of you every minute of the day and wonder if you suffered the day you left.  You were such a massive part of my daily life that I can't help but think of you all the time.  I keep thinking it will get easier with time, but it doesn't seem to.  I feel so bad that I didn't get to hold you and console you when they found you.  I guess that will stick with me forever.  Even tho we had our great dance the night you left, it just doesn't seem to be enough.  It seems like I was always there for you in your trying times, but not this time.  Oh Darrel why didn't you wake me like I asked you to.  I have never known such pain and loss as this.  Please God give me strength to handle this and to know he is in your hands.  He was as you know one of your greatest followers and believers.  He tried so very hard to be in your likeness.  I was always, I mean ALWAYS so very proud to have you as my son for the very short time that God allowed.  I look forward to the day I see you again.  You will be whole again and smiling that beautiful smile.  I know you would have been surprised at how many lives you touched in your short time here on earth.  Until I see you again honey I love and miss you.  Be joyful as always. 

Honey it has been 2 years today since you went away and it seems only yesterday.  I know you have finally found peace and that makes me happy for you.  For me it has been so painful and such a massive loss.  I know that a part of me died with you on that day.  I often wonder if on that fateful night if you were afraid, lonely, or in despair.  I wonder if you were in great pain that night.  I almost feel like I, too, felt those feelings you had that night.  I know you had such a relationship with God that I am sure you weren't afraid.  Baby, there is such a hole in my soul and being that I feel so different, changed from who I used to be.  I know you went thru heck here on earth and was so very tired.  I also know you are and must be at such peace.  I can see you dancing and making everyone laugh at your quirky ways.  I have to chuckle when I see you doing that.  That is what I miss and your beautiful smile.  I miss your sweet, sweet kisses and warm hugs.  I miss your ability to confide in me about things you struggled with.  I know you are with me spiritually but I miss the physical touch, talks and laughter we had. Sometimes I feel I am going insane without you here.  You always said that I was so strong but the truth comes out I am not when it comes to you.  Darrel you were such a beautiful blessing in my life and I knew when you were a child that I would have you only a short while.  God tried to tell me that you were a loaner for a short time.  I just chose to not believe it.  I wanted you here forever. Selfish feelings I know but I loved you so much.  I know that being in God's Presence was your ultimate desire and I also know you have finally made that Journey.  I know your desire was accomplished and you are now at peace and happy, dancing, and sharing laughter with everyone.  Until I see you again I love and miss you with all of my heart.  I want to dance with you again my love.  Rest in peace my baby.

Oh sweetheart, the month of August of 2006 is so very vivid in my mind.  All of the trials and tribulations we went thru. the many discussions we had and the daily visits I had with you at the hospital.  Your sadness for not being able to go to Victoria's birthday party.  Your plea to God for his will to be done.  I know you were so very tired and I was so heart broke for you at that time.  I thought that pain was so very hard to bear, watching my baby, so tired and feeling so uncertain if he could be physically able to attend family functions and carry on some normalcy of life.  We expressed so much love for one another as we always did.  The pain that I felt back then did not hold a candle to the pain I feel now without you.  I now know that a part of me went with you when you left.  I also know you thought I ws so strong, well, honey I am not strong when it comes to loss of you.  I miss you so very much.  You would be so very proud of Beth and family.  They have been real troopers with me and for me.  What a blessing they are.  I think of you every where I go everything I do that we both did together.  The laughter we had with some very special moments.  Save me a place Darrel for I want to finish our dance.  I love and miss you much.  Until we see each other again my love just keep them laughing and dancing.  That includes Nedra and Justin.  Justin was a very fine young man just like you. 

When someone you love is no longer with you physically, we have to cherish those tender moments that were spent together and keep those memories in our heart forever. Remembering his childhood years , teenage years and young adulthood is almost like reading a book with vivid stories that need to be shared with others. This my friend is what keeps us going and keeps him alive in our hearts. Always remember his smile, sense of humor, good looks and loving heart-for these are just some of the things he can be remembered by. I thank God for loving us unconditionally and knowing that one day we will have a place in heaven. See ya later Darrel and Justin.

Well, dear heart it has been a rough holiday missing you and seeing you romp around with Victoria and the J man.  I know you loved the 4th of July.  We, Kurtis, Beth, Victoria and Jordan went to Stanley and enjoyed Redish Lake.  I visualized you there with us.  Oh, how much fun you would have had.  Although I know you were there spiritually.  I missed you physically.  I keep thinking it will get better,but so far it is still so hard to be here without you.  I try so very hard to realize that you are so pain free and so very happy to be at peace, but my heart doesn't seem to understatnd that.  My mind knows that you are where you are supposed to be per God's wishes but my selfish heart wants you here.  Baby, what can I do to make it better.  I realize that you were a loaner and we were blessed to have you for a short time.  I know you weren't perfect but who is.  You were very special to us and you definitely touched so many lives.  The daily calls from you and continuous times together are so missed.  Silence is so very loud.  I miss those calls.  Until I see you again please take Justin and Nedra's hands and lead the way for them.  They were very special people.  Show them how to dance.  Until I see you again I'll just say so long.  I love and miss you my love.   

     What can I say??????  It has been 22 months today and I still miss you so very much.  Even tho my mind says you are at peace my heart says I miss you and want you back again, if only for a little while.  I want to finish our dance and let you know how much I loved you.  I know I told you but that isn't enough.  Everywhere I go I see things that remind me of you and the fun we had.  I hear songs especially by Shanaia Twain, Trace Adkins, and Mercy Me.  I so miss your phone calls, smile and humor.   You would be so very proud of Bethie for being so strong.  I know I am.  It seems only yesterday we were dancing.  Your warm embrace, and your proffession of love for me and mine for you.  Your ever so soft hair and yummy Old Spice Cologne.  It is still so very vivid in my mind.  It wasn't supposed to be like this.  Your leaving first.  I know you were so very tired and God was ready for you.  I want you to welcome Justin there with you.  He was a fine young man.  Maybe you could show him the way.  I love ya baby.  Til I see you again, dance my love and be at peace. 

Dottie, I want you to know that I can feel the love that surrounds Darrel. Even though I never had the chance to meet him, just by reading everyone's memories of him lets me know what a fine boy that he was. You should be very proud of Darrel and know that one day the two of you will dance again-isn't that great! You are such an inspiration to those you meet, now doesn't that sound just like Darrel. He had such a wonderful mom, teacher, friend and buddy. I will never forget the story that was told to me about you shaving your head so that he would not go thru it all alone. He was loved so much.  My heart aches for you, I share your loss and know the emptiness inside but always remember those wonderful times you had with him. Whenever you see the sun shine thru the trees or smell those buttermilk biscuits coming from the oven, know that he is a part of your life forever. Remember all along life's path, thru every step, the LORD walks with us. Your loving friend....Mona